Looking at life a little differently
I'm not sure if I want to prepare to die or prepare to extend life. I'm tired, but I don't think I tired enough to stop fighting. I'm out of will but not out enough to give up. I don't want to continue all this shit, but know that I still want to live as the Big Boss wants me to. I am totally confused about stuff, honestly. I keep asking myself if other people have had this issue, especially if life is involved. Not someone else's lives, but their own. Do I want it or don't I? Do I keep continue the fight or not? By the end of June, it'll be the first year since I got through the surgery without issues. Or at least I think there were no issues. Hehe. Happy 44 next week, self. Also, happy 1st year without the cancer. Let's hope the perfusion studies show something positive. Hey, please don't think that I'm only asking for good things to come up. However this turn out, Bud, I'm ready, as you've prepared me to be. I love You whether th...